the first time i looked in to his eyes i was my future, but there was one thing i did not see and that was our future being cut so short. we always talked about going old together, and sitting i on a front porch in the mountins in a cabin on fall days and just living. or taking a year long cruise to everywhere. just get off of one ship and go to the turn style and get on another one. he loved to take vacations and we loved takeing them with him, he always planed so much to do and always something for each of us, for him racing stuff, me anything to do with wines, Heather was whatever she was into but mostly whatever her dad was into she was into, but guns was always at the top for all 3 of us. he was such a great man, and truly my best friend. but when we knew he was sick we talked and he wanted me to move on with me life, and find that person that would love me and be my partner, for as long as forever could be. little did he know just how hard that request would be.
Rod helped me grow in so many ways, ways that other people would never know, but one thing he di was made sure i got my GED, him and Heather set for nights helping me do the work until i got it. he made me the person i am, strong but without him it really is hard. and somedays i just wanna walk away from life and not give a damn about anything or anyone, that would be today, just sick of life or people of me and so tired from missing my true love.
